Wow. I am so with Miriam!!! I didn't comment on your post, Miriam, because my post will be the comment! I am very much feeling like you are feeling...am I doing what God wants me to do?? Does God want me to do more? Does God want me to do anything????
And I know that my thoughts are along the same path as Miriam's...different situation, very similar thought pattern. Lately, I have been so very wrapped up in something that I want...that I have dreamed of since I was just a little girl...something that only God can give me...that I have started to be a bit...well... I guess it could be called manipulative. I get so angry that I have to wait, that the answer might be "no", that I don't even want to look at or touch my Bible; I don't want to see another devotional, hear another person say, "just have faith"...but then I think, maybe if I prayed more, read more, sang more, served more. Maybe then I would know blessing like so many others around me...maybe then...
God doesn't work that way. No matter how often I oscillate between fear and faith, God doesn't change. He knows my heart. He knows my needs. Most importantly of all, He knows what is best for me.
And I am so glad that I am in such good company, including the disciples of the Scripture for today!
Today's passage comes from Luke 8:22-25 and reads as follows: